Feeling lost.

Do you ever feel lost?  Off track? Out of the loop?  

Lately I have found myself in the quiet moments before bed, or gearing up for the day, thinking, "I feel lost."

I have said it enough recently that I started to think maybe there was something wrong with me. 

I should not feel lost. 

I have a great life, a great family, fantastic husband, the most wonderful circle of friends, a job I like. AND, in every place God has called us to, he has taken care of us abundantly.

So I should not feel lost. No sir, no ma'am. 

While thinking about how weird it was that I keep feeling "lost," it hit me that my feelings of "lostness" are directly correlated to my connectedness that day or week with God. 

I've been trying to gear up some things, personally, both to organize my life a little better, but also to "fill my bucket," and to start moving the gears on some longterm goals I have. 

I think God is trying to teach me that even the good things I do- for myself and for Him- can't replace my time with Him, or my conversations with Him. 

I still need to be checking in. I still need to be in love with Him, rather than in love with "my mission."  In fact, it is occurring to me that I need to be checking in more often than usual, to make sure I'm staying "on track."  What a novel idea...